I have bad dreams.
I realize that everyone has bad dreams. However, I have bad dreams almost every single night. This has gone on for as long as I can remember. I have always had sleeping problems. I don't pay it that much attention. It is just something I have grown accustomed to.
I get between 4-6 hours of sleep a night. I wake up constantly. I toss. I turn. My nightmares are vivid. Most times it is the same recurring nightmare played on repeat all night long. Sometimes it is one long constant dream that continues no matter how many times I wake up and go back to sleep hoping the nightmare will stop. I wake up yelling sometimes. Other times crying.
I don't take any sleep medication. I function fine for the most part so I don't see the point.
A few times a year, I will have nightmares so vivid and so horrible that I don't feel rested. I don't function fine. The nightmares continue into the day. I see them while I am awake and it is all I can think about. The past few nights have been horrible. I woke up before my alarm today. Everything is a haze and all I feel like doing is crying.
Nothing is funny on these days. Nothing tastes good. Nothing is right. I am not right.